Maybe u love or hate Islam. Or maybe u very proudly like to say u r a muslim, but shame on u, that u yourself hardly follow any Islamic act ie., hardly follow the qur'an & sunnah (teachings) of prophet mohammad saw.
The beautiful fragrance of atar (cologne/ perfume) can refresh & fullfill ur mind & heart, only when the best flowers are extracted ignoring the pains of its throngs, then carefully processed. Similarly, if u need the true fragrance of life, u need to extract its beauties. How? By containing the evil that whispers in ur mind. Bcoz it dosen't alllow (by distracting) u by making u think yourself being either a a racist, bigot or half scientist when it comes to choosing the rite faith. Whereas when it is for any other decision it rather helps u being rationale, well educated decision-maker.
So obvious, yet so obscure. Don't underestimate the power of this evil to fool u!! It, if left unchallenged, will always succeed in choosing the wrong priorities or by creating foolish pride keep u away from the true enlightened path. Any stupid that follows religion will defend his wasted times saying those..its telling u now. Ask it - being a muslim (or non muslim) u have read hundreds of text, non text books, y not qur'an? Wot harm lies reading that scripture? Wud u have lost ur religion or knowledge? Rather it will increase ur knowledge profoundly not accounting believing part, if u chose.
Its ur rite to know the truth but not through a liar jinn (genie) or an extremist religious clergy or corrupt politician. None of these read the qur'an but quotes it for blasphemy. Blasphemy is profitable in the world of greedy fools, but in reality most expensive. It earns ETERNAL hell. So don't rely on others in choosing the only freeway out of 10 that will not drive u towards deadend.
Retreart to ur study for just half an hour, everyday - if untainted truth is wot u seek. U will inshallah (allah willing) feel & see the ultimate purity & beauty of life. Then start extracting the unexplainable, nonshareable (feeling of chaste & bliss) from the unfathomable ocean of fragrance that makes u the most peace loving beautiful creation - ashraful makhlukat (Qur'an about human beings superiority amongst all creations of Allah).